#365DaysOfHabits Day 5; Looking (11 January 2015)

We as humans are very observant, yet at the same time we are so oblivion that it is actually frightening. This past weekend was filled with characters I didn’t know from anywhere. Sometimes I stop and think — we pass hundreds of people daily and it is the reality that we won’t ever see them ever again. As we go through different stages, our needs change, and as our needs changes, our outlook at life changes, we see things that before was only unobserved moments that passed us by. Another harsh truth is that more often than none, we are always looking for the wrong thing, that thing that we know we honestly shouldn’t want — then all of a sudden we stumble onto what we were always meant to find. Strange, isn’t it?

I explored a new app today, called ‘Storie’. A platform on which you create short videos that you can share with your followers. It got me thinking just how much we actually share with the world out there. We find it easier to share our thoughts with complete strangers from all over the world. It is what our world has come to. Through social media, YouTube, blogging — the expression of who we are is defined through that which is visible online. We adjust it, edit it, and layer it with filters that makes it bare impossible to decipher the truth from the made-up reality we have become so accustomed to. Or has this changed? Do we represent ourselves honestly on cyberspace? Is it possible? Perhaps Gaga explained it best in her music video for Marry The Night when she said: “It’s not that I don’t want to see things exactly as they happened, it’s just that I prefer to remember them in an artistic way. And truthfully the lie of it all is much more honest, because I invented it.” Then she went on to say, “It’s not that I have been dishonest, it’s just that I loath reality.” Then I think: how honest am I? Do we, in the looking for truth, lose ourselves and start believing the lies we tell? We keep finding new ways to express ourselves, different methods of going about telling the world who we really are — what we like, what we don’t like, what we want, what we don’t want. We are constantly looking for answers to questions that really, came into existence through previous answers we so desperately wanted.

What if we stopped looking? Let’s talk about love. Love is universal. Lindsay Lohan’s character in Mean Girls says that she loves maths because it’s the same in every language. Love doesn’t need a language, love just it. We aren’t looking for a person that fills out all our specific needs, or that one person who is everything we have always imagined and dreamed of — the bare, raw, reality is that what we want is to just meet that one person who we can just love us like they do. We have no control over love — we like to think that we do, but we all know that if that was true then love would have made sense, and it doesn’t matter who you are or how many degrees you have, you will not tell me that love makes sense or that you have the answers or explanations to love. No, you don’t.

All I want is to hold your hand. I want to share my story with you, I want to feel that unexplainable expression that they have referred to through all the ages as that four letter four: love. The problem is that we go looking for love. Seek and you shall find, they said. BUT, because love happens so differently for everyone, how can we ever really give an answer? We are dependant on others, we rely on those around us — and sometimes we just need to clear our minds and say the words that get all jumbled up in our heads. Let’s face it, we are looking for a plus one. Sure, we might be perfectly happy on our own and content with not having that someone, and there’s nothing wrong with that, but really, deep inside as we look through the looking glass we start seeing the truth behind the man in the mirror. We wonder what our story will be, and no matter how hard it is, I think we should come to the realisation and admit to ourselves that no mater how hard we want to fight it or how long we wait, we are LOOKING.

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